你还有什么要对"Queer Porn Nation"的粉丝说的吗? What else do you have to say to your fans at Queer Porn Nation?
感谢你成为我的粉丝,我很高兴能尽我所能满足你 Thank you for being my fans, I'm happy to satisfy you in any chance that I can.
你知道我喜欢性爱,我喜欢拍摄色情片 As you know I love sex, I love shooting porn,
我希望自己能做很多年 I wish myself to do it for many many years
所以你会得到最好的打手枪 so you will have the best jerk off ever.
- 你好. - 你好 - Hello. -Hello.
我们在构建一个幻想,不是一个单纯的表演 We are building a fantasy. That's the idea, it's not a show.
这是一部舞台上的色情演出 It's a porn movie on stage.
没有观众,没有人群 There is no audience, there is no crowd.
这就像是一个剧院,还有第四堵墙 (戏剧专业术语,用来形容这堵将舞台上下两个世界分割开的隐形存在) It's like a theatre and there is a fourth wall.
这个幻想是关于在车库工作的男人 And the fantasy is about men at work in a car garage.
直男,愚蠢,有点像尼安德特人 Straight people, dumb people, a little bit Neanderthal.
我们午休 We do a lunch break.
你的妻子给你带了一个三明治 You have your wife bringing you a sandwich.
在他把小册子拿出来的那一刻 The minute he takes the booklet out
你会想:"我不是真的直男,你是直的吗?" you try to: "I'm not really straight,are you straight?"
把假阴茎拿出来...“哦,我不是直男” Take the dildo out..."Oh, I'm not straight."
从那一刻起,自由地做你想做的事 From that moment,free to do what you want.
我不得不承认你喜欢大屁股 I like big butts and I cannot lie.
这是硅基的,为了演出 This is a silicon based for the show.
- 你还住在巴塞罗那吗? - 是的 - You still live in Barcelona? - Yes.
- 你还拍色情片吗? - 没有 - You still do porn? - No.
去年我妹妹得了癌症,我什么也做不了 Last year my sister had cancer. I couldn't do anything.
- 她现在还好吗? - 我吗? - She's okay now? - Myself?
- 不,你的妹妹... - 她二月份去世的. - 对不起 - No. Your sister...- She died in February. - I'm sorry.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
它就像改变你,改变你的思想 It's like changes you, changes your mind.
用任何事物,任何你的所作所为 With anything. With anything you do.
以你的爱人,电影,任何事物... With lovers, with films with anything...
- 就像... - 什么时候...？ - it's like... - When...?
二月 February.
- 你准备好了吗? - 是的 - Are you ready? - Yeah.
我们走吧 Let's go.
我很想让你演成这样 I want you pretty much to be like this.
- 亲爱的? - 妈妈? - Sweetheart? - Mama?
亲爱的,见到你真高兴 Sweetie, I'm so glad to see you.
你走后我们就没说过话了 We haven't talked since you left.
我想让你认识一下Christo I want you to meet Christo.
- 你好. - 那就是Christo. - 嗨 - Hello. -That's Christo. –Hi.
关于你的事情我听到的都是好的 Only good things I heard about you.
我也听过许多关于你的好话 I've heard very good things about you too.
你的身体怎么样? 感觉好点了吗? How is your health? Are you feeling better?
现在好多了,谢谢 Much better now, thank you.
太棒了 Fantastic.
- 他真可爱. - 我知道 - He's so cute. - I know.
哦,看啊,我得到了这条裤子... Oh, look, look. I got these pants...
天啊 Oh my.
- 哇,就像蝙蝠侠一样. - 那正是我说过的 - Wow, like Batman. - That's exactly what I said.
现在来看看这个 Now check this out.
我宁愿你给自己买一件漂亮的外套 I'd rather you buy yourself a nice coat.
我知道,妈妈 I know, Mama.
总有一天我会给自己买一件大大的外套 One day I will buy myself a big-big coat.
事情是这样的... Here's the deal...
我向每个人询问关于拉维夫的事情 I’m consulting everyone about Raviv.
- 关于什么? - 爸爸 - About what? - Dad.
- 哦,拉维夫. - 是的 - Oh Raviv. - Yeah.
- 我没有接他的电话. - 如果觉得没有必要,那就不要 - I didn't answer his call. - If it feels unnecessary, then don't.
我接这个电话干什么? What do I need it for?
问题是你要不要见他 The question is if you want to see him.
这完全取决于你 It’s totally up to you.
- 你不欠他什么. - 对 - You don't owe him a thing. - Right.
它在哪里? Where is it?
我和我父亲不说话,因为他从来不在我身边 My father and I don't talk because he was never there for me,
他对我和我哥哥来说就不是一个父亲 he was never a father to me and my brother.
我出生后,他就抛弃了我们 He abandoned us after I was born.
我11岁那年,我们来到德国,我记得他说... When I was 11 and we came to Germany, I remember he said...
他说什么? 发生了一些事情,他说: Why did he say it? Something happened and he said:
你表现得真像个同性恋 "You're acting like a homo."
我记得我打电话给我妈妈 I remember I called my mum,
因为我很伤心,那都我11岁 because I was so hurt. I was 11 years old.
你还好吗? Are you alright?
约翰尼? Johny?
尤纳丹? Yonatan?
约翰尼? Johny?
这不是我们第一次看到 It's not the first time that we see that.
当他感到有压力的时候,他就陷入了自我 The second that he feels stressed he sinks to himself.
她觉得自己不够坚强,无法面对任何必须面对的事情 He doesn't feel strong enough to face whatever he must.
我知道他父亲的事... I know that the thing with his dad...
让他心烦意乱,整件事... like, really upsets him, the whole thing...
而他几乎从不谈论这件事 and he barely talks about it.
原本我的姓是"兰格".尤纳丹,兰格 Originally my last name is "Langer''. Yonatan Langer.
"兰格"对我没有意义 "Langer" didn't do it for me.
乔纳森,才是我的名字 Agassi, That's the name.
我以前发帖说 - "乔纳森.阿加西救了我" Once I posted - "Jonathan Agassi saved my life."
他是那个 He's a character
每当我需要帮助时就会接管我的人 that takes over me whenever I need help.
他总是站在我这边 And he's always on my side.
嘿! Facebook上的各位 Hey everybody, Facebook, how are you?
我是乔纳森.阿加西,我已经为HustlaBall酒吧现场秀准备好了 I'm Jonathan Agassi, I'm all prepared for the HustlaBall.
祝我好运,乔纳森.阿加西最牛逼 Good luck to me, yeah. Jonathan Agassi rocks.
我妈妈贴一张"When You Are a King"乐队的海报.愿上帝保护她 My mum posted "When You Are a King" on my wall. Bless her heart.
该去HustlaBall酒吧了 Time for HustlaBall.
大局已定 Whatever will be,will be.
你得放松 Relax.
我放松不了, 我怎么放松的了? I can't relax. How can I relax?
我迟到了一个半小时 I'm one hour and a half late.
颁奖在这里吗? Is the awards here?
颁奖典礼 The awards show.
- 开始了吗? - 是的. - 他们开始了? - Did it start? - Yeah. - They started?
乔纳森.阿加西在这里 Jonathan Agassi is here by the way,
我刚到,对不起,我很抱歉我迟到了 I just got here, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was late.
卢卡斯娱乐 "Lucas Entertainment."
美国最好的色情演员 "The best American porn performer."
谢谢你! 谢谢,谢谢 Thank you,thank you, thank you.
妈妈,我是色情界里面最好的演员 "Mum, I'm the best actor in the world of porn!"
- 你在等着取走什么吗? - 是的 - Are you waiting to pick something up? - Yes.
给你 Here you go.
非常感谢 Thank you very much.
- 尤纳丹,这次很完美. - 那当然 - Yonatan, this time it's perfect. - I'm sure.
我有很多电影要看 I got a bunch of my movies.
让我看看 Let me see.
- 这些都是你的电影吗? - 当然不是 - These are all your movies? - No, of course not.
- 你买了什么? - 门款(镶边) - What did you get? - Mezuzahs (doorpost parchment).
我拿到门框镶边了,太棒了 I got mezuzahs, how nice.
门款镶边和色情片 Mezuzahs and porn.
- 那是他的信仰. - 确实 - To each his religion. - Exactly.
太棒了 That's awesome.
尤纳丹! 真的是你 Yonatan! It's really you.
我在犹豫 I'm in suspense.
- 现在我们上楼做爱,所以... - 哦,好的 - Now we go upstairs to fuck, so... - Oh, okay.
- 不适合你. - 到现在为止一切都很好, 尤纳丹 - It's not for you. - Up to here it was so good, Yonatan.
非常酷 Real cool.
哦,不... Oh no...
我把所有的东西都保存在电脑里了 I save everything on my computer,
包括我第一次试镜的时候 even my very first audition.
所以,乔纳森... So, Jonathan...
你叫乔纳森.阿加西吗? What's your last name? Jonathan Agassi?
- 乔纳森.阿加西. - 说说你自己吧 - Jonathan Agassi. - So tell me all about yourself.
- 我24岁了. - 我住在特拉维夫 - Well, I'm 24 years old. - I live in Tel Aviv.
你住在家里? You live at home?
是的,和我妈妈一起. 我爸爸住在柏林 Yeah, with my mum, and my dad lives in Berlin.
- 他为什么住在柏林? - 他喜欢哪里 - Why does he live in Berlin? - He likes it.
- 他们离婚了吗? - 是的,因为... - They divorced? - Yeah, since...
好吧,你的第一次性体验是怎样的? Alright, so what was your first sexual experience?
- 我14岁的时候,在我14岁生日的时候. - 发生了什么? - When I was 14, in my 14th birthday. - So what happened?
他对我说,"闭上眼睛,想像那是个女人" He told me, "Close your eyes and think it's a woman,"
于是我闭上眼睛,想象那就是他 so I closed my eyes and imagined it was him.
我想从那时起,这就是我喜欢的 I think since then, that's what I like.
- 你喜欢怎样的性爱? - 我喜欢很棒的,猛烈的性爱 - And what do you like in bed? - I like good, hard sex.
- 猛烈? - 是的. - 好吧. - 那就不温柔... - Hard? - Yeah. - Okay. - Not gentle...
你不想我在你第一次的拍摄中温柔点吗? Don't you want me to be gentle with you in your first film?
- 稍微温柔一点. - 那就温柔一点 - A little bit gentle. - A little gentle.
- 好. - 那就来试一下温柔一点 - Yeah. - Let's try to be a little gentle.
乔纳森很快就学会了如何在镜头前工作 Jonathan understood how to work for the camera very quickly.
在个人生活中做爱 There is a big difference between having sex in your personal life
和在镜头前做爱是有很大区别的 and how to have it for the camera.
你必须把身体和你的搭档分开足够的距离 You have to separate the body from your partner enough
让摄像机进入,以便他能尽快拍摄到画面 to let the camera in, and this is something what he got within no time.
晚上好,欢迎收看来自耶路撒冷的IBA新闻 Good evening and welcome to IBA News coming to you from Jerusalem.
就在离耶路撒冷不远的地方,在阿拉伯村庄苏巴的废墟中 Just a short distance from Jerusalem, amidst the ruins of the Arab village of Suba,
有另一个由迈克尔.卢卡斯导演的美国电影场景 another scene from the American film directed by Michael Lucas.
迈克尔在以色列的发现之一是演员兼模特乔纳森.阿加西 One of Michael's discoveries in Israel is actor and model Jonathan Agassi,
他很快成为了国际成人娱乐业公认和 who soon became a recognised and admired star in the international
受人尊敬的明星 adult entertainment industry.
乔纳森成了这部极为成功的作品的主角 Jonathan became the star of an incredibly successful production.
也许是同志色情史上最成功的作品 Maybe the most successful production in gay porn history.
甚至主流媒体也对他进行了评价 It got reviews even in mainstream press.
《洛杉矶时报》曾报道过这一点 Los Angeles Times written about that,
所以对他的职业生涯来说是一个极好的开端 so that was a fantastic startup for his career.
嘿,伙计们,我是乔纳森.阿加西,我即将在 Hey guys, I'm Jonathan Agassi and I'm about to have my first
米兰拍摄我的第一张照片,你们一定要看看 photoshoot here in Milan, and you have to see that.
看看有多少衣服和鞋子 Look how many clothes and shoes.
在4-5月之内,没有一个看色情片的男同性恋 Within 4-5 months there would be no gay man that watches porn
不知道这张脸的 that would not know this face.
他会出现在每一本同性恋杂志上 He would be in every gay magazine.
他非常受欢迎 He was incredibly popular.
总之,你知道我周六要开始拍摄 Anyway, you know I'm starting my shoots on Saturday
我要拍4部电影,不是3部,不是2部,不是1-4部. and I'm shooting 4 movies. Not 3, not 2, not 1 - 4.
乔纳森是那种罕见的演员 Jonathan was one of those rare performers that you'd right away
你会立刻感觉到他有多喜欢性爱,他有多想要他的伴侣 feel how much he loves sex, how much he wants his partner,
他不是装出来的,他很自然 it wasn't fake, it was just so natural.
他给每一个场景都带来了新的表演元素 He was bringing new elements of performance to every scene.
他永远不会做同样的动作 He would never be doing the same routine.
这就是为什么人们想要一次又一次地见到她 That is why people wanted to see him again and again.
- 过来坐下,没有期望. - 就没有失望 - Come and sit down, no expectations. - no let downs
把我想象成只有你能想象的样子 Imagine me as only you can
满足我,不要让我休息,我要吊你的胃口,直到你发疯. Be what I need, don't let me rest I'll keep you in suspense until you go mad
剩下的一切结束了 All that's left of the power that's over
我将为明天,为另一个伟大的日子养精蓄锐 I'll save for tomorrow, for another great day
- 尤纳丹! - 怎么了? - Yonatan! - What?
我的天啊 Oh my God.
我必须得习惯它,这是一种极端的 I have to get used to it, it's kind of drastic.
很美,很美... It's beautiful, it's beautiful...
它很美,很神奇,但很奇怪 It's beautiful, it's amazing, but it's weird.
看起来不好吗? It doesn't look good?
你通常会印象更深刻 You're usually more impressed.
看到你穿着长袜很奇怪 Seeing you in stockings is weird.
利奥 Lior.
利奥会震惊的 Lior will be shocked.
- 利奥! - 什么? - Lior! - What?
哇 Wow.
- 你觉得怎么样? - 这很...暴露 - What do you think? - It's...revealing.
是啊,很暴露,但是看起来好吗? Yeah, it's revealing, but does it look good?
如果我把头发留长了...? What if I grow out my hair...?
嘿,沙哈夫 Hi, Shahaf.
- 你好吗? - 很好 - How are you? - Fine.
- 你在以色列,尤纳丹. - 所以呢? - 你就这样出去吗? - You're in Israel, Yonatan. - So? - Is that how you're going out?
- 你不能那样出去. - 为什么? - 你不在柏林 - You can't go out like that. - Why? - You're not in Berlin.
沙哈夫,它好看吗? Shahaf, does it look nice?
很好,但是我不喜欢看到你这样,抱歉 It's nice, but I can't see you like this, sorry.
我爱你, 你是我的兄弟,但是... I love you, you're my brother, but...
- 我们小时候很亲密, - 非常亲密 - We were close as kids. - Very close.
他很小的时候就出柜了,我失去了他 When he came out at an early age, I lost him.
- 也许他失去了你, - 不,我把他弄丢了 - Maybe he lost you. - No, I lost him.
你不记得尤纳丹说过:"这家伙叫我同性恋" Don't you remember Yonatan saying: "This guy called me a homo"
那人拿出一把刀,你在说什么? The guy took out a knife. What are you talking about?
在学校打架,骂人 Fights in school, swearing.
我知道有人受苦,但我们能做什么呢? I know someone suffered, but what could we do?
告诉尤纳丹不要出来,因为每个人都受伤了? Tell Yonatan not to come out because everyone's getting hurt?
- 你只关心你自己, - 我无法靠近你 - You only care about yourself. - I can’t get close to you.
我必须处理每个人的问题,不仅仅是你的 I have to deal with everyone's problems, not just yours.
你们三个 All three of you.
尤纳丹必须面对他的新世界... Yonatan had to deal with his new world...
他终于自由快乐了,他一点也不在乎 Where he's finally free and happy and he doesn't give a damn.
穿上它 Put it on.
你走上舞台,你意识到你在战场上,只有男人 You go on stage and you realise you are in a war, only men,
你想念你的妻子 you miss your wife,
你很饥渴,你看到你周围的男人 you are horny, you see men around you.
我所有来自以色列的朋友们总是在电视上看到. - 军队,战争... All of my friends from out of Israel always see on television - army, war...
对他们来说 and for them,
他们认为以色列人总是在军队里,很有男子气概,很男性化 they think Israelis are always in the army, always macho, always butch.
好吧? 这是一个幻想 Okay? It's a fantasy.
- 大卫和我在中间? - 是的,当然可以 - David and I are in the center? - Yes, of course.
- 尽量让自己看起来像军人. - 他们不知道什么是军队 - Try to look like in the military. - They don't know what is the military.
两个人,走在前面 Two people, go in front.
太令人震惊了. 哦,尤纳丹,真的... That's shocking. Oh, Yonatan, really...
- 我应该这样放吗? - 是的 - Should I put it this way? - Yes.
我希望鞋跟不会断,尤纳丹 I hope the heel won't break, Yonatan.
妈妈,你得帮我一个忙 Mom, you have to do me a favour.
我得寄明信片,我忘了 I have to send the postcards, I forgot.
超级巨星乔纳森.阿加西 Jonathan Agassi, superstar.
你让你的粉丝很开心 You're making your fans real happy.
我们很幸运,迈克尔在异国他乡拍戏 We're so lucky that Michael shoots in exotic places.
上次是伊比沙岛,现在又是这个.这是一个梦想... Last time it was Ibiza and now this. It's a dream...
也许我拍电影的时候我会提前3天带你来 Maybe whenever I'm filming I'll bring you 3 days before.
天呐,他好性感 God, he's so hot.
他很饥渴,我看得出来 And he's horny, I can tell.
我无法描述他童年时我们经历了什么 I can't describe what we went through during his childhood.
有一天我接到学校的电话 I got a call from school one day
告诉我尤纳丹站在窗台上 to tell me that Yonatan is standing on the window sill,
孩子们在喊"跳,跳" and kids are shouting, "Jump, jump!"
在二楼上 It was on the second floor.
他们说:"从窗户进去,在桌子上大便" They said: "Go through the window and shit on the tables."
大便在桌子上! "Shit on the tables!"
那时候我对妈妈说:"不,我不想要这个" That's when I said to my mum, "No, I don't want this."
我发誓,我要哭了 I swear, I'm tearing up.
他们知道我会走极端... They understand that I'm going to the extreme...
不是因为我想,而是因为我想逃跑 not because I want to, because I want to run away.
我想从窗户跳下去 I want to jump out the window?
一个10岁的孩子摔断了胳膊 A 10 year old kid breaks his arm.
你以为他的同学会来看你... You'd expect his classmates to come visit...
他们朝我扔垃圾,因为我很女性化 They threw shit at me because I'm feminine.
就好像,我永远是罪魁祸首 And it's like, I'm always the one to blame.
我是这个,我是那个... 这不是真的 I'm this, I'm that... And it's not true.
这是痛苦,这是痛苦 That's anguish. That's anguish.
我四天前拿到剧本了 I got the script 4 days ago.
"听着,计划有变" "Listen, there's a change in plans."
我的角色很次要,我在这部电影里有两个场景 My role is very minor, I have 2 scenes in this movie.
一个场景是和取代我位置的电影里的明星 One scene is with the star of the movie who took my place,
我没意见 I'm okay with that.
我的第二个场景是和两个“健美运动员“都剃了光头 My second scene is with two "bodybuilders," all shaved.
当你触摸他们的时候你会觉得自己身处荆棘丛中 When you touch them you feel like you're in a field of thorns.
我不刮我的身体,这不是时尚的问题 I don't shave my body, it's not a matter of fashion,
因为我不喜欢刮胸毛的男人 it's because I'm not attracted to men who shave their chests.
如果没有吸引到我,我就不能行动我的老二不会变硬 If I'm not attracted, I can't function my dick won’t get hard.
我是什么,一台机器吗? 我背上有电池吗? What am I, a machine? Do I have batteries on my back?
我不能和他们两个上床 I can't have sex with those two.
我不能 I can't.
我的老板迈克尔说,如果我不喜欢什么,我可以告诉他 Michael, my boss, said that if I don't like something I can tell him.
也许和你不喜欢的人拍色情片是个挑战? Maybe it's a challenge to do a porn scene with people you're not attracted to?
我不能 I can't.
我担心人们会说,"乔纳森.阿加西这次没有表现出色" I'm afraid people will say, "Jonathan Agassi didn't rock it this time."
我们非常明确我们想要什么 We are very specific about what we want
乔纳森总是违反我们的规章制度 Jonathan would violate our rules and regulations all the time.
越来越多 More and more and more.
他认为,为了与其他模特竞争 He believed that in order to compete with other models
他开始需要注射类固醇 he needs to start doing steroids,
他需要拥有这些强壮的手臂 he needs to get these huge arms,
他需要留胡子 he needs to get a beard.
随着每一次拍摄,更多的纹身,更多的穿孔 With every production, more tattoos, more piercings.
我越是要求他留头发,他就越想把它剪短 The more I'm asking him to keep the hair, the shorter he will cut it,
直到有一次他出现在我面前,留着铂金色的头发 until one time he showed up with platinum blond hair
我们把他送回家 and we sent him home.
- 给,这个给你的, - 谢谢 - Here, this is for you. - Thanks.
- 这正是我想要的. - 太棒了 - It's exactly what I wanted. - Great.
亲爱的 Sweetheart.
哦! 现在我能看到你了 Oh! Now I can see you.
你打算星期三星期四留下来吗? You're going to stay Wednesday-Thursday?
你的航班是什么时候? When's your flight?
我得买一张去伦敦的机票 I have to buy a ticket to London.
为什么是伦敦? Why London?
我在那里有些工作 I have some work there.
没什么有趣的,除非... Nothing interesting, unless...
什么? What?
- 看看你做了什么. - 什么? - Look what you did. - What?
也许你不应该... Maybe you shouldn't have...
我不知道这是个秘密,我以为她知道 I didn't know it's a secret, I thought she knew.
两年来我一直在谈论"客户". 我是什么,律师吗? I've been talking about "clients" for two years. What am I, a lawyer?
我以为你明白 I thought you understood.
我该怎么理解? How was I supposed to understand?
这不是秘密,我坦白地说过这件事 It's not a secret. I talk about it openly.
- 我总是说... - 我不记得了 - I always say... - I don't remember.
我以为你在这些地方表演 I thought you're performing in all these places.
当这是一场表演的时候我说我在表演 When it's a performance I say I'm performing.
我以为你工作的公司安排了所有这些旅行 I thought the company you work for arranges all these trips.
不可能,只有在我拍电影的时候 No way. Only when I'm making films.
我工作的公司是一家电影公司 The company I work for is a film company,
只有电影 only films.
我开始接触色情. 一年后我才当上了护卫(陪伴服务) I started out with porn. I only became an escort a year later.
对吗,妈妈? Right, Mum?
我不是妓女,我是护卫. - 有什么不同? I'm not a prostitute, I'm an escort. -What's the difference?
这不是卖淫,我不站在街上 It's not prostitution, I don't stand on the street.
这就是我要说的,如果不给人们实现梦想的机会 This is what I say, I can't create fantasies for people
我就不能为他们创造幻想 without giving them the opportunity to fulfill them.
他们对我只有尊重 They treat me with nothing but respect,
他们都认识妈妈,的名字... and they all know Mum. By name...
他们都知道她有多棒 They all know how amazing she is.
有时候我比色情电影更喜欢它... Sometimes I enjoy it even more than the porn...
我要去见一个客户 I'm going to meet a client.
他要出差所以带我一起去 He's going on a business trip so he's taking me with him.
这不是卖淫,是《漂亮女人》中的茱莉娅.罗伯兹 It's not prostitution, it's Julia Roberts in "Pretty Woman."
给我看看... 很好 Show me... It's nice.
- 太棒了. - 合身吗? - 完美. - Amazing. - It fits? - Perfectly.
你真漂亮 You're so beautiful.
- 你说什么? - 很好. - 你喜欢吗? - 是的 - What do you say? -It's nice. - You like it? -Yes.
- 谢谢你. - 再见 - Thank you. - Bye.
- 你高兴吗? - 是的,当然 - Are you pleased? -Yes, totally.
我要离开两个月,我还是会继续寄生活费回来 I’m leaving for 2 months. I’ll keep sending money.
- 你的责任不是来支持我们. - 但它是 - It's not your responsibility to support us. - But it is.
你们甚至不能维持生计 You don't make ends meet
我现在就出去买一双鞋回来? and I'll go out and buy another pair of shoes?
好吧,我会挥霍... 你觉的我能做到吗? Okay, I'll splurge... You think I can do that?
我是你的男人 I'm your man.
你是我的男人,但你也是我的孩子 You're my man, but you're also my child.
我首先把你当成我的孩子,而不是男人 I consider you my child first, not my man.
我第一次当护卫是在以色列 The first time I escorted was in Israel.
如果他不给我钱,我就不会让他做他想做的事 I wouldn't let him do what he did if he didn't pay me.
他认为他可以收买我,他做到了 He thought he could buy me. And he did.
"这样做,再得到300美元" "Do this, get another $300."
我早上10点就带着 I came home at 10am
4000美元回家了,他妈的又浪费精力 with $4,000, fuckin' wasted,
又沮丧,还哭了 depressed, crying.
我把4000美元放在这里,然后妈妈下班回来 I put the $4,000 here. Then Mum got back from work
我说,"我整晚都在做一件事" and I said, "I did something all night long,
"我很难过,我永远不会成为一名妓女" "I'm so sad, I'll never be a prostitute."
我记得我把所有的钱都拿了出来 I remember taking out all that money
妈妈看着钱问,"你有多少钱?!" and Mum looked at it and asked, "How much do you have there?!"
"衡量一下它给你带来的感受" "Weigh it against how it made you feel.
"值得吗?" "Is it worth it?"
- 照顾好自己,答应我,别做傻事. - 好的 - Take care of yourself, promise me. Don't do anything stupid. - Okay.
- 帕蒂. - 是吗? - Patty. - Yeah?
- 六楼,宝贝. - 6楼? 好的 - 6th floor, baby. - 6th? Okay.
- 它们没变大吗? - 你变大了... - Haven't they gotten bigger? - You got bigger...
我告诉过你,我现在是卡戴珊了 I'm a Kardashian now, I told you.
- 完全... - 卡戴珊的屁股. - 大屁股 - Totally... - A Kardashian ass. - Big ass.
- 它很大. - 我有大咪咪. - 大咪咪 - It is big. - I've got big boobs. - Big boobs.
所以,我不在乎有没有摄像头... So, I don't care that there is a camera...
- 你想吸点什么吗? - 当然,这是什么? - 可乐. - Do you wanna sniff something? - Sure, what is it? - Coke.
我还有很多... I also got a lot of T...
- 我今天才开始工作. - 蒂娜? - 嗯,你想要什么? - I just started today. - Tina? - Yeah, you want?
- 女孩,没有. - 没有? 我不这样做. - 我告诉过你这很糟糕 - Girl, no. - No? I don't do it. - I told you it's bad.
是的... Yeah...
- 所以现在你在这里, 你住哪里? - 伯纳德的公寓 - So now you're here, where are you staying? - Bernard's apartment.
- 你不和你爸爸住在一起? - 没有 - You're not staying with your dad? - No.
发生了什么事? What's going on there?
和我的父亲吗? 我不知道 With my father? I don't know.
我们很久没有说话了 We didn't talk for a long time.
非常非常长的时间 Very, very long time.
父亲就是一坨狗屎 Fathers is shit.
这就是为什么我只和妈妈打交道 That's why I only deal with my mum.
妈妈是最好的 Mums are the best.
- 是的, - 有时候. - 除非他们是邪恶的 - Yeah. - Sometimes. - Unless they are evil.
我不在乎爸爸,除非... 这是我喜欢的爸爸 I don't care about daddies, unless... it's my kind of daddy.
我本来可以成为你的 I could have been you.
当我15岁的时候,我很确定我想成为一个女人 When I was 15 I was sure I want to be a woman.
我想成为其中的一员 I wanted to be one of the gang.
我从来没都不合群,在高中时不合群,在任何地方都不合群 I never fit in. Not in high school, not anywhere.
我最喜欢拍电影,比性和金钱更喜欢 I love filming most of all, more than the sex and the money.
我喜欢拍摄和观察我所做的事情 I like filming and watching what I do.
让我欲火焚身的是一个不仅仅带有性爱的游戏 It turns me on that I can play a game, that it's not just the fucking.
如果有人操我,那样对我,我会欣喜若狂 If someone fucked me and treated me like that, I'd be over the moon.
- 我更男性化还是女性化? - 这不是重点 - So are you more masculine or feminine? - That's not the point.
这就是每个人的思维方式 That's how everyone's mind works.
如果你是下面那个,那么你就是女性 If you're a bottom, then you're feminine.
我不在乎这个 I don't care about that.
我可以满怀信心的转过身来 I can turn over with the utmost confidence,
丝毫不失去我的男子气概 without losing my macho for a second
然后说:"是啊,操我的阴部" and say: "Yeah, fuck my pussy."
“让我怀孕,让我做你的婊子” "Get me pregnant, make me your bitch."
那么,直男希望你成为女人吗? So do straight men want you to be a woman?
不,直男不想让我成为女人 No, straight men don't want me to be a woman,
如果他们想,我会告诉他们滚蛋 if they did, I'd tell them to get the fuck out.
这可能有助于一个渴望和男人做爱的直男 It may help a straight guy who is dying to fuck a man,
但他的自尊不允许他这么做 but his ego won't let him,
所以当他看到一个男人穿成这样,他的大脑中就会出现一些不正常的东西 so when he sees a guy dressed like this, something unwinds in his brain.
如果他们想要一个女人,他们就不会去追求一个男人 They wouldn't go for a man if they wanted a woman.
这有什么意义呢? What's the point of that?
我现在唯一关心的是我应该上传什么到Facebook上... The only thing I care about now is what I should upload on Facebook...
首先我得给妈妈打电话 First I need to call Mum.
- 亲爱的? - 等一下.妈妈 - Sweetie? - Just a second, Mum.
一秒钟 One second.
我忘了一些东西 I forgot something.
- 我能在镜子里看到你. - 噢,该死 - I can see you in the mirror. – Oh shit.
你看起来真好! You look so good!
我没有画黑色的眼线 I didn't put black eyeliner.
转身,你很帅 You're so handsome. Turn around.
- 哦,这是... - 是黄色的花边 - Oh, it's... - It's the yellow lace.
不错吧? Nice, right?
还记得我把可乐洒在这100欧元的手套上吗? Remember these 100 Euro gloves that I spilled Coke on?
嗯,在这里 Well, here they are.
太棒了 Wonderful.
你看起来像电影里的那些女人 You look like those women in the movies,
穿着吊袜带和长袜 with the garters and stockings.
你要穿暖和的衣服吗? Are you going to wear something warm?
是的,我带来我的外套 Yes, I'm taking my coat.
好的 Okay.
- 祝你好运,亲爱的! - 我爱你! - Good luck, darling! – I love you!
你是我的明星 You are my star.
出租车 Taxi.
出租车,你现在有空吗? 你好,你有空吗? Taxi, you free now? Hello. You free?
五分钟后我下来,五分钟 Five minutes I come down. Five minutes.
我们都准备好了,我有毒品 We're all set. I got drugs.
钥匙,香烟,口香糖 Keys, cigarettes, chewing gum.
G.
我知道了 I got this.
我来了,我来了 I come, I come.
我们下来了! We're coming down!
我太紧张了,我的胃在翻转 I'm so nervous, my stomach is turning.
我还没有想过如果我赢了该说什么 I haven't thought about what I should say if I win.
非常感谢大家... Thank you so much everybody for...
投票的是观众 It's the audience that votes.
非常感谢你选我为今年的最佳男演员 Thank you very much for choosing me as the best actor of the year.
我只是想让每个人都知道这是我的骄傲和快乐 I just wanted everybody to know that this is my pride and joy
也是我一生中发生的最好的事情 and the best thing that ever happened to my life,
所以我很自豪,很高兴成为你眼中最好的自己 so I'm proud and happy to be the best of it in your eyes.
我很兴奋,连续第二次获得这个奖项 I'm very excited, getting this award second time in a row.
希望我们还能在这里生活很多年 Hopefully we'll be here for many years to come.
非常感谢,再见,拜拜 Thank you very much. Shalom, bye bye.
很完美,不是吗? Perfect, isn't it?
谢谢你,再见 Thank you, bye bye.
我应该把电源打开,这样就可以了.插进去就可以了 I should turn the power on, this way it works. Plug it in.
提名第一名,卢西奥.圣斯为阿尔法男性梦之队 Nominee number one, Lucio Saints for The Alpha Male Dream Team.
最佳男演员提名第二名,凯文.沃霍尔. 来自《美丽天使》 Best Actor nominee number two, Kevin Warhol from Belami - Kinky Angels.
最佳男演员提名第三名,来自卢卡斯娱乐公司的乔纳森.阿加西 Best Actor nominee number 3, Jonathan Agassi from Lucas Entertainment.
获胜者是... And the winner is...
阿尔法男性梦之队,卢西奥.圣斯,最佳男演员 For The Alpha Male Dream Team, Lucio Saints, best actor.
梦之队-阿尔法男性 Dream Team - Alpha Male.
现在我要你说三遍:"乔纳森.阿加西是最好的" Now I want you to say 3 times: "Jonathan Agassi is the best."
乔纳森.阿加西是最好的 Jonathan Agassi is the best.
嘿约翰尼,我是爸爸.我听说你在柏林.打电话给我,再见 Hi Johnny, it's Dad. I heard you're in Berlin. Call me. Bye.
你是在告诉我你父亲抛弃你的事 Are you telling me that the fact that your father abandoned you
- 并没有伤害到你吗? - 没有 - didn't hurt you? – No.
我一点也不在乎 I couldn't care less.
问我妈妈,我总是说我爸爸死了 Ask my mum, I always said my dad is dead.
去问她! "我爸爸死了" Ask her! "My dad is dead."
我的祖父母,拉维夫的父母 My grandparents, Raviv's parents,
他们过去常常把我们的视频发给我父亲 they used to send videos of us to my father.
他们会告诉沙哈夫和我 They'd tell Shahaf and me,
看着镜头,爸爸在里面 "Look in the camera, Dad is inside."
看,爸爸在镜头里 "Look, Dad is in the camera."
爸爸在里面,爸爸在里面 "Dad is inside, Dad is here."
我们从未从他那里取回胶卷 We never got any film back from him.
我爸爸在镜头里一直都是红点 My dad was always a red dot in the camera.
你知道吗? 你想要记忆吗? 你想要戏剧吗? You know what? You want memories? You want drama?
我想起来了 It all came back to me.
今天是沙哈夫的成年礼(13岁生日) It’s Shahaf’s Bar-Mitzvah (13th birthday).
他从拉维夫的母亲那里得到了一张票 He gets a ticket from Raviv’s mother.
尤纳丹也想去德国 Yonatan wants to go to Germany too.
我真的被拉维夫伤害了,因为他叫我"同性恋" I was really hurt by Raviv because he called me "Homo."
- 什么样的父亲会这样做? - 做什么? - What kind of father does that? - Does what?
为他的儿子找女人做爱, 所以他叫我同性恋 Gets women for his son to fuck. That’s why he called me a homo.
他想让我干她但我做不到 He wanted me to fuck her and I couldn’t.
她吻了我的嘴,我给你看她的照片 She kissed me on the mouth. I’ll show you a picture of her.
- 这是在哪里发生的? - 在法兰克丝, - 一个妓院吗? - Where did this happen? - In Frankfurt. - In a brothel?
不,她是我爸爸的女朋友 No, she was my dad’s girlfriend.
我爸爸策划了整件事让我和她上床 My dad orchestrated the whole thing for me to fuck her.
别忘了我当时12岁 Don’t forget that I was 12.
你生他的气了吗? Were you mad at him?
我所关心的只是从德国带一条丁字裤回家 All I cared about was going home with a thong from Germany.
还没准备好 It's not ready yet.
这是一种烈性毒品 It's a hard drug.
这是"蒂娜女士." 这是"蒂娜" This is "Ms. Tina." This is "Tina."
它能让你飞到一英里高,给你大量的能量 It gets you mile-high, gives you loads of energy.
它唤醒你,这不是一次像迷幻药那样的旅行 It awakens you. It's not a trip like you get on Ecstasy.
它让你很性感 It makes you very sexual.
哦,我得给自己注射 Oh, I have to inject myself.
这种注射会让你的阴茎硬4个小时 This injection makes your dick stone hard for 4 hours.
坚如磐石 Rock solid.
之后会很疼 And afterwards it's really painful.
- 你会操自己吗? - 绝对不会! - Would you fuck yourself? – Absolutely not!
我从来没有... I've never been...
我不喜欢那些漂亮的男孩 I don't like all those pretty boys.
必须把针头拔出来,你要想对待其他注射一样对待针头 You have to draw the needle, you treat the needle like any other injection.
这里,这里,这里,这里和这里,只是不要一直在中间 Here, here, here, here and here, just not straight up the middle.
当你注射时它会燃烧还是刺痛? And when you inject does it burn or does it sting?
有些人注射得很快,有些人注射得很慢 Well, some people do it fast, some people do it slow.
我注射的很慢,所以我没有刺痛 I do it really slow, so I don't have a sting.
好了,你是下一个上台的,我带你过去 Okay, you are the next one on the main stage, I bring you there.
你能保证没人来吗? Can you make sure that nobody comes here, please?
第一组... First group...
这份礼物,这份事业,是我经历过最好的事情 This gift, this career, is the best thing that ever happened to me.
在经历了所有的糟糕之后,这是发生在我身上最好的事情 After all the bad, this is the best thing that happened to me.
我会永远坚持下去 I’m going to hold on to it forever.
一年多来,迈克尔.卢卡斯一直恳求我做无鞍 Michael Lucas has been begging me to do bareback for over a year.
无鞍是在没有安全套的情况下拍摄的 Bareback films are shot without a condom.
你是我们的主持人,我们的独家新闻,你需要做无鞍 You're our presenter, our exclusive, you need to do bareback.
拍摄那天我有一个客户 On the day of filming I had a client,
所以我晚了一个小时到达片场,有点兴奋 so I arrived on set an hour late, a little high on G.
第一个演员,21厘米长的鸡巴,它几乎到达了我的心 The first actor, 21 cm long cock, it practically reached my heart.
我被撕成了碎片 I got ripped to pieces.
很疼,我从沙发上摔了下来,为了那场戏我做了所有的事 It hurt, I fell off the couch, I did everything for that scene,
这是我有生以来第一次无法在片场完成任务 for the first time in my life I couldn't cum on set.
我的屁股疼,我射不了 My ass hurt, I couldn't cum.
我有生以来第一次不得不假装高潮 First time in my life that I had to fake an orgasm.
你用某种看起来像静夜的奶油 You use some kind of cream that looks like cum
然后假装它 and you fake it.
一个月过去了,我该拿工资了 A month passes, I'm supposed to get paid.
他们没有付足够的钱给我 They didn't pay me for the scene.
因为我没有高潮,他们付给我1000美元 Because I didn't cum. They payed me $1,000.
你不能射精 "You couldn't ejaculate."
喂 Hello.
在什么时间? For what time?
你什么时候有空? When is it possible for you?
我只是在街上,因为烟花我几乎听不到你讲话 I'm just on the streets, I can barely hear you because of the fireworks.
我10分钟后到我的公寓,我会给你打电话 I'll get to my apartment in 10 minutes and I'll give you a call.
我认为有可能,绝对有可能 I think it's possible, definitely possible.
好的,太好了,再见 Okay, perfect. See you, bye.
我有工作 I've got work.
我太累了 I'm so tired.
- 顺便问一下你们有多少人? -两个 - How many are you, by the way? - Two.
哦,这甚至是双倍的快乐 Oh, that's even double the pleasure.
- 我有一根大鸡巴. - 我真的很喜欢大鸡巴 - I have a huge dick. - I really love huge dicks,
我肯定回来,但要花一个小时左右 I'm definitely coming, but it'll take me an hour or something like that.
好吧 Alright.
我好累,我不知道该怎么做 I'm so exhausted. I don't know how I'm going to do this.
我真的不想让大家失望 I really don’t want to let people down.
当有人和乔纳森.阿加西上床时,他们想要的是上帝 When someone goes to bed with Jonathan Agassi they want a god.
如果不是,他们就会失望 If not, they'll be let down.
他没那么好,乔纳森.阿加西 "He's not that good, that Jonathan Agassi."
当我感觉和某人很亲密时,我可以不服用伟哥,也不需要发挥作用 When I feel close to someone I feel free not to take Viagra or to function.
但是我怎么知道他们不是因为我是乔纳森.阿加西才和我在一起呢? But how do I know if they're not with me just because I’m Jonathan Agassi?
我不需要男朋友 I don’t need a boyfriend.
人们付钱和我睡觉,这样我也可以让他们拥抱我 People pay to sleep with me, so I can make them hug me too.
他应该在19:30左右到这里...我想 He should be here at around 19:30... I think.
他打电话给我 He called me.
嘿,约翰尼,我是爸爸,今天有安排吗? 告诉我你的地址,再见 Hey Johnny, it's Dad, are we on for today? Remind me what your address is. Bye.
你有什么喝的吗? You got anything to drink?
- 你想要什么? - 水,不是自来水 - What do you want? - Water, not from the tap.
- 你有男朋友吗? - 没有 - Do you have a boyfriend? - No.
- 我也没有. - 女朋友呢? - Me neither. - A girlfriend?
- 你有女朋友吗? - 有两个 - You have a girlfriend? - Two.
实际上有三个. 但是没人知道她是我的女朋友 Three, actually. But one doesn't know she's my girlfriend.
- 为什么,你认为我变了吗? 我没有变. - 我也是 - Why, did you think I changed? I haven't changed. - Me either.
你总是喜欢搞砸,去死吧 You always liked to screw. Just screw.
我向我儿子学习,或者我儿子向我学习. I learned from my son. Or my son learned from me.
如果可以的话,我也可以从中赚到钱.但我要的是孩子 If I could I'd make money from it too, but instead I make kids.
你生了孩子 You make kids.
听着,我们可以不停地谈论性 Listen, we can talk about sex non-stop.
好了,我们不要再谈性了,开始谈女人吧 Okay, let's stop talking about sex and start talking about women.
- 关于一个女人. - 谁? - About one woman. - Who?
- 我认识的一个女人. - 哦,你妈妈? - 是的! - A woman I know well. - Oh, your mother? – Yes!
哦,你妈妈 Oh, your mother.
妈妈是这个城市里最漂亮的女人,对吗? Mum was the most beautiful woman in the city, right?
我看见她就说,那是什么? 我永远找不到那样的女人 I saw her and said, what is that? I'll never get a woman like that.
她是如此美丽 She was so beautiful.
所以我问她,我们什么时候结婚? So I asked her, when do we get married?
她说,"星期三" She said, "Wednesday."
我们结婚了,三个星期没下床 We got married, we didn't get out of bed for 3 weeks.
如果这是一场伟大的爱情,为什么会结束? If it was such a great love, why did it end?
我不知道 I don't know.
- 你一点都不后悔吗? - 我很后悔 - You have no remorse? - I've got plenty.
- 过去的就让它过去吧. - 你本可以做得更好 - But what's done is done. - You could have done it differently.
我能做得更好吗? What could I have done differently?
我想当我在柏林的时候... I think that while I was in Berlin...
我想再次体会有父亲的感觉 I wanted to have a father again.
尤纳丹,你是我的儿子,你永远都是我的儿子,我爱你 Yonatan, you’re my son, you’ll always be my son and I love you.
我相信... I believe...
爱时要表现出来的,"我一辈子都见不到你,但我爱你?" Love has to be shown. "I won’t see you all my life, but I love you?"
接受我对你不负责任的事实 "Accept the fact that I take no responsibility for you."
我对任何事情都不负责! I take no responsibility for anything!
这是我,我不为自己负责 That’s me, I don’t take responsibility for myself.
你永远不会忘记佐伊... You never forget Zoe...
佐伊是另一回事 Zoe is a different story.
- 我们会谈到这一点的. - 她是个孩子 - We’ll get to that. - She's a child.
我们也是孩子 We were children too.
- 你是个大男孩. - 但我以前也是个孩子 - You’re a big boy. - But I used to be a child too.
你曾经是,但我那时不一样 You used to be, but I was different back then.
老实说,沙哈夫是唯一一个计划好的孩子 In all honesty, Shahaf is the only child that was planned.
我们想离开以色列搬到美国去 We wanted to leave Israel and move to the US,
我们没有得到签证,我们搬到了加拿大 we didn't get a visa, we moved to Canada.
在加拿大才4个月,你妈妈就说她怀孕了 After only 4 months in Canada your mom says she's pregnant.
你是在告诉我吗? Now you're telling me?
她想要个女孩,她肯定是个女孩 She wanted a girl, she was sure it's a girl
所以我才保留了孩子 and that's the only reason we kept the pregnancy.
最后是个男孩,对她来说是个打击 In the end it was a boy and for her it was a shock.
她患有产后抑郁症 She had postpartum depression.
是产后抑郁还是因为是个男孩而抑郁? Postpartum depression or just depressed because it was a boy?
她很吃惊那是个男孩,不是女孩 She was shocked it was a boy, not a girl.
她悲痛欲绝 She was devastated.
你总是一个人 You were always alone.
你在你的婴儿床里... You were in your crib...
我是说你总是很干净,吃得很好 I mean, you were always clean and well fed,
但是你从来没有得到过婴儿需要的拥抱和关心 but you never got the hugs and attention a baby needs.
我出生后她的抑郁持续了多久? How long did her depression last after I was born?
直到她回到以色列 Until she returned to Israel.
这就是她离开的原因,你明白吗? That’s why she left. Do you understand?
如果我是女孩呢? 一切都会不一样吗? And if I was a girl? Would everything be different?
我不想责怪任何人... 但你母亲的抑郁症... I’m not trying to blame anyone... but your mother’s depression...
所以你在责怪某人 So you are blaming someone.
这是我们之间的很大一部分 That was a big part of what came between us.
我变得冷漠,疏远.我就是这样处理的 I became cold, distant. That’s how I dealt with it.
我只是关上了我的心 I simply shut my heart.
小可爱,你好吗? Cutie, how are you?
听着,真的很不错 Listen, it was really nice.
- 拉维夫说了你的好话, - 真的? - Raviv said good things about you. - Really?
他说你是多么美丽,你的爱情多么伟大 He said how beautiful you were and what a great love you had.
最后我问他,如果我生下来是个女孩呢? In the end I asked him, what if I was born a girl?
他说,“我不知道” He was like this, "I don't know."
你是什么意思,如果你生下来是个女孩? What do you mean, if you were born a girl?
我们谈了很多关于你们分手的事 We talked a lot about your breakup.
他说你很想要个女孩 He said that you really wanted a girl
所以你们之间的关系才会变得一团糟 and that's why things got messy between you.
你听得到吗? Can't you hear me?
我想要一个女孩和我们之间的混乱有什么关系? What does me wanting a girl have to do with the mess between us?
我曾问过他是谁的错? 他说,“你妈妈有抑郁症” At one point I asked him who's to blame? He said, "Your mum's depression."
我抑郁是因为哟有个儿子? 噢拜托... I was depressed because I had a boy? Oh please...
我很抑郁,是因为我在纽约的某个破地方被忽视了 I was depressed because I was neglected in some dump in New York.
我每天都很痛苦,哭了一整天,没有人可以倾诉 I suffered every day and cried all day and I had no one to talk to.
那个男人回到家就在沙发上打了一整夜的呼噜 The man came home just to snore all night on the couch.
这就是我抑郁的原因 That's why I was depressed.
我想回以色列,我不好意思 I wanted to return to Israel and I was ashamed
向我父母要更多的钱 to ask my parents for more money,
因为他把钱都花在了他那糟糕的生意上 because he spent it all on his crappy business affairs.
他常说,"所以只要孩子们有吃的 He used to say: "So you won't eat,
你就别吃" as long as the kids have food."
所以我的抑郁不是因为有了儿子而不是女儿 So my depression didn't come from having a son and not a daughter.
- 你怎么想的? - 他是个狗娘养的 - What do you think? - That he's a son of a bitch.
- 怎么了,亲爱的? - 他把我当傻瓜 - What is it, sweetie? - He made such a fool out of me.
为什么? Why?
因为我太天真了,我相信了他的话 Because I'm so naïve, I bought his story.
- 什么? - 因为我相信了他的话 - What? - Because I bought his story.
尤纳丹... Yonatan...
- 你刚才说什么? - 没有,什么都没说 - What did you say? - Nothing, nothing.
以前我很冷静,现在我很生气 I was calm before and now I'm angry.
亲爱的,我很抱歉,对不起 Sweetie, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.
恶心! Sick!
抑郁! Depressed!
经历了一段糟糕的时间段 Going through a bad period.
- 你好. - 嗨,我是乔纳森,你给我打电话了吗? - Hello. - Hey, it's Jonathan, did you call me?
- 是我. - 你好 - Yes, I did. - Yeah, hi.
- 嗨,我看到你在同性恋罗密欧上的广告了. - 好的 - Hi, I saw your ad on Gay Romeo. - Okay.
- 你在普伦茨劳尔贝格? - 我在普伦茨劳尔贝格,是的 - And you are in Prenzlauer Berg? - I'm in Prenzlauer Berg, yeah.
- 你有带皮革吗? - 带什么? - Did you bring any leather by any chance? - Did I bring what?
- 你带皮革了吗? - 皮革,是的, 我有一些皮革 - Did you bring any leather? - Leather, yeah, I have some leather.
- 你是哪里人? - 以色列,特拉维夫 - Where are you from? - From Israel, Tel Aviv.
- 啊,你来自以色列,好的. - 你喜欢以色列人 - Ah, you're from Israel. Okay. - You like them Israelis.
- 你只是来看看吗? - 是的,差不多 - You're just visiting? - Yeah, something like that.
你在找什么? What you looking for?
- 如果你有大号的鸡巴... - 是的,比XL大一点... - If you have a dick size XL... - Yeah, a bit more than XL.
你能给我发张照片吗? Can you just send me a picture?
好的,如果你能给我发一条关于同性恋罗密欧的消息... Yeah, if you can just send me a message on Gay Romeo...
让我们等待答案吧 Let's wait for an answer.
我不喜欢性,我不喜欢工作或朋友 I don't feel like sex, I don't feel like work or friends,
我什么都不喜欢 I don't feel like anything.
- 你好吗? - 很好 - How are you? - Fine.
我度过了糟糕的一天 I had a terrible day.
可怕的夜晚,可怕的白天 A dreadful night and a dreadful day.
它是如此痛苦 It's so traumatic.
令人难以置信的是,它仍然很疼 It's unbelievable how much it still hurts.
他就像... It's like he lives…
晚上,我觉得他那又大又胖的影子在压垮我 At night I felt like his big fat shadow was crushing me.
我整夜辗转反侧 I tossed and turned all night.
我醒来时觉得很累 I woke up feeling beaten.
这真的侮辱了我 It really insulted me.
他说的话真的侮辱了我 What he said really insulted me.
他歪曲事实,侮辱我 He twisted the truth and insulted me.
你知道我经历了什么,抑郁... You know what I've been through, the depressions...
你从没有离开过 And you never walked away.
这并没有让我离开 It didn't make me walk away.
对不起,是我造成了一切 I'm sorry I caused all of this.
很抱歉我一开始就同意了 I'm sorry I agreed to it in the first place.
不是你造成的 It's not you who caused it,
使他的谎言造成的 it's his lies that caused it.
不是你 It's not you.
我一点也不怀疑你 I don't doubt you at all.
- 你是世界上最好的妈妈. - 我不需要赞美 - You're the best mum in the world. - I don’t need praise.
我知道我不是世界上最好的妈妈,因为如果我是... I know I'm not the world's best mum, because if I were...
然后呢? Then what?
不是所有东西都是... Not everything is...
闪闪发光的 glitter and gold.
我看到比我好的多的母亲 I see mothers who are much better than me.
对我来说你是最好的,你知道的 For me you're the best, you know that.
我不可能再要求更多了 I couldn't have asked for more.
- 我爱你,妈妈. - 我也爱你 - I love you, Mum. - I love you too.
我一直在外面等你,你迟到了30分钟 I've been waiting out here, you're 30 minutes late.
我能说什么,我也有自己的生活 What can I say, I have a life too.
你知道吗? You know?
你好吗,佐伊? How are you, Zoe?
好吧,听着 Okay, listen.
这是妈妈的,她给你写了一封信 This is from Mum. She wrote you a letter.
就是这样 That's it.
改天见 I'll see you sometime.
希望如此 I hope so.
我爱你,佐伊 I love you, Zoe.
爱你 Love you.
再见 Bye.
尤纳丹? 尤纳丹? 尤纳丹? Yonatan? Yonatan? Yonatan?
尤纳丹? Yonatan?
我去给你拿点水,起来. 一切都会好的 I'll get you some water. Get up, everything is okay.
我这两天吸毒太多了 I did so much drugs in the past two days.
- 尤纳丹,尤纳丹. - 什么? - Yonatan, Yonatan. - What?
跟我说话, 尤纳丹 Talk to me, Yonatan.
尤纳丹, 你还有呼吸吗? Yonatan, are you breathing?
我累坏了,妈妈 I'm exhausted, Mum.
我一点力气都没有 I have no energy at all.
在那里我什么事都做不成 Nothing worked out for me there.
而你不在那里 And you're not there.
没关系 It's okay.
我有...一段艰难的时期 I'm having... a rough time.
粗糙,悲伤,虚弱... Rough, sad, weak...
我真的睡不着 I can't really sleep.
我的性欲消失了 My sex drive is gone.
我不能有正常的性生活 I can't perform sexually.
我说的一切似乎都是真的 It seems I am all the things I say I'm not.
我对某种毒品上瘾了 I got addicted to a certain drug.
我以为自己肌肉发达,经常锻炼 Thinking I'm muscular, working out,
吃饭睡觉,做爱,性欲旺盛 eating and sleeping sometimes, having sex, being horny,
一切都是真实的,但都来自一个不真实的地方 it all seemed real, but it came from an unreal place.
我一直在吸毒 I was on drugs the whole time.
我一直在考虑发布一个Facebook状态 I've been thinking of posting a Facebook status,
"我能看到乔纳森.阿加西的结局" "I can see the end of Jonathan Agassi."
曾经有人告诉我,我是这个世界上的玛丽莲.梦露 Someone told me I'm the Marilyn Monroe of this world.
我希望我能以这样的方式结束,每个人都将把我视为一个传奇 I hope it will end that way for me, everyone will see me as a legend.
片名: 《乔纳森.阿加西拯救我的生命》
乔纳森搬回以色列,现在和他妈妈住在 特拉维夫的一个小公寓里.
他在剧场制作中扮演重要角色,目前在当地一家超市工作谋生.
他戒掉了毒品,离开了色情行业.